Mid-week Meditation – Psalm 139 (part 3)

Psalm 139:14 - Bible Verse - Book of Psalms

As I was looking at these verses (13-18) of this Psalm I was struck by how it speaks right into our identity, who we are, who we perceive ourselves to be, or even who we wish we were! Let us look at these verses together:

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body

and knit me together in my mother’s womb.

Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!

Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.

You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,

as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

You saw me before I was born.

Every day of my life was recorded in your book.

Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

Psalm 139: 13-16

There we were in our embryonic stage in our mothers’ wombs, being made, being formed in God’s likeness male or female. No gender fluidity here – one or the other – male or female; God did not make any mistakes here, He did not make any mistakes with us.

This being the case means that we should not be rebelling against ourselves, the people we are, wishing we were someone/something else, we are who God created us to be.

So for me, God created me a short person, He created me female, an introvert, emotional, the ‘wonderfully complex’ person I am within a time and place in history. Yes, I am tainted by sin, yes sin has had it effects on the environment in which I grew and that may have affected genetics and my DNA, but still created, known, formed, loved by God even before I was born.

Every day of my life was recorded in your book – Wow! He knows my every day – the good days, the bad days, the mediocre days and even the tedious days – all written, all recorded in His book of Life.

Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. – Even before I was born, God knew my days, how many there would be, my allotted time-span, He already knew!

So what does this mean for me today?

In many ways it means self-acceptance. Acceptance of who I am as a person, of who God created me to be. So I accept my short stature, I accept my emotional temperament, my complexities and in many ways I accept and learn to live with the things I perceive as short-comings, the giftings I don’t have and the ways I may not be like others.

My life has been known and numbered by God, He has seen the sin which has broken me, the experiences which have tainted me, the scars which have shaped me into who I am today, BUT He is also the One who can redeem my story and change me into who I can become in Christ.

And when I think of these things, then my response is worship:

How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered!

I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand!

And when I wake up,you are still with me!

Psalm 139: 17 & 18

In other words, I am struck by awe at such knowledge! Struck by the thoughts God has of me: the number of them and the good in them.

He saw me being formed in my mother’s womb, He sees me every step of every day, and He sees when I lie down at night and is there again when I wake up in the morning! Surely indeed that is cause to bow the knee and worship?

Mid-Week Meditations – Psalm 139

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As we get used to wearing face coverings I wonder how much we can now cover up of our emotions, the way we present ourselves to the world? Our smile may be hidden behind our masks, but do we hide our grumpiness or feelings, do we even try to hide our identity and hope that no-one recognizes us?

We hide so much from the world, even from our friends and family, we hide behind that facade of “I’m fine”; “I’m doing okay”, when sometimes we are anything but fine and the illusions of control we have is fast slipping through our fingers.

As we come to the first 6 verses of this Psalm we see that we cannot hide from God, nothing goes without His notice, He doesn’t just SEE all we do and say, but He KNOWS us, He knows why we do things, what brought that thing on, He knows our background, He knows our hurts, He knows the things which have shaped us.

You have searched me, Lord,

    and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise;

    you perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down;

    you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue

    you, Lord, know it completely.

You hem me in behind and before,

    and you lay your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,

    too lofty for me to attain.

Psalm 139:1-6

With God we can’t hide behind any masks of ‘coping’, any lies of ‘I’m fine’. We are known by God.

He knows all our activities – He knows when we get up, when we lie down, when we go out, when we come back in, who we are with, and how we have felt, He knows it all.

He knows our scattered thoughts, He knows our thought processes, He knows the chains which connects them which to others would seem random! He knows our words what we are going to say even before it is out of our mouth!! I wonder if we would cringe if we thought about this when we utter unkind, selfish words?

What does He do? He hems us in, He draws us closer and closer until there is no escape and there is just Him. Breathe. Just God. No need for any pretense, no need for any mask, no need to put on a show, just God.

Breathe.

He lays His hand gently upon us, stilling our wayward thoughts, our guilts, our anxieties, our fears, our worries.

He is.

Peace.

Be still.

God knows not just what we are going through, but God knows us. Breathe. Be still.

No need to hide, He knows, He knows it all and still He draws, still He wants us closer, He wants us to come, bare, exposed, vulnerable, to be healed, to be calmed to be stilled, to be in awe.

God.

Breathe.

Be still.

You are known.

You are loved.

Breathe.